“I loved a man. I loved ●. I don’t know how else to begin. I want to say I was a shadow. I want memory blotted out like a blank space.”— — Lucia LoTempio, from Hot with the Bad Things (via lifeinpoetry)
just when i begin to feel better i get reminded of that pain and it sends me into dark waters again.
i don’t want to feel anything.
they look at me like i’m pitying myself but that’s just not it— plain and simple: i’m exhausted. i just want to not feel anything and just be at peace. it’s draining dealing with all this constant turmoil and torment and trauma. i’m just tired, man.